Alawiyyah

A new year, a new start!

2012-01-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

Hihi I know I'm a week too late to wish everybody happy new year lol. I can't believe my journey to A's starts on Monday when school reopens. I hope I will start it right and end it well. @Alawiyyah no procrastination no distractions no failing no excuses no room for mistakes if you wanna achieve your long desired goals. Have confidence!

Sometimes I feel that life is like a race. Yes?

Killer heels!

2011-12-30T01:24:00.007+08:00

I just bought myself a new killer heels! I really love it so much that I wanted to wear it to sleep I'm serious haha. Here's why I love my new heels: 1, it's elegant 2, it's 13cm high (I know it's freaking 13cm but isn't that why it's called high heels) 3, it's the first ever 13cm high heels that I own and 4, it's really beautiful (you'll only understand if you're a girl and a shopaholic like I am heh) and to prove why it's worth buying I'm uploading photos of my new heels! Go ahead, envy me now hahahahaha ^^ I just hope that I won't fall when I walk in those heels lol.

I made my own Popsicle!

2011-12-28T00:37:00.005+08:00

I bought a Popsicle molder and some fruit juice and made my own Popsicle today! ^^ Now I can have a Popsicle whenever I want hehe gonna be sooo fun and so exciting lol.

#quickupdate

2011-12-27T18:01:00.007+08:00

Helllooooo. Merry Christmas everyone!

The past few days have been great I supposed. I spent both my Saturday and Sunday with my family.

I spent my Monday with friends (Andrew, Gopal, Aloy and my long lost friend whom I haven't talked to in about 4 months Jerome lol) had dinner @ Scapes's Sakae Sushi. That place has horrible service and the food sucks, never eating at Sakae Sushi again. We could have eaten at a better restaurant if we had known that our movie was gonna start late (Andrew bought the 7.15pm tix but we got the 8.50pm instead) We watched Sherlocks Holmes! That is soooo NOT my type of movie lol but I had to watch it cause the boys wanted to ppfffttt. I sat beside Andrew so I could ask him questions about the movie if I don't understand what was going on lol. And I treated the birthday boy Jerome to popcorn + coke lol that's for being a great friend driving all the way from bt timah to jurong and ghim moh fetching andrew and me hehe.

x

Young homie, what you trippin' on?

2011-12-23T11:32:00.003+08:00

Chris Rene - Young Homie

I believe I can fly ~

2011-12-22T23:35:00.008+08:00

Have you ever felt like you are at this phase in your life where you have hit rock bottom and you're so tired of feeling tired of life? At this point in time, I cannot even count how many times I have felt that way. Every time I told myself to change, I just keep repeating my mistakes. Until... today I suddenly felt like I've had enough of these bullshit. Like I need to get my shit together and change my attitude if I wanna achieve my goals and succeed in life.

"Life's too short gotta live it long"

Btw, I'm super inspired by X Factor's Chris Rene! I think his songs are amazingly wonderful! He writes beautiful song, he sings sincerely from his heart and touched everybody with his life stories and I think even if he don't win X Factor, he'll definitely be someone whom we can all look up to and say "I wanna be just like him" The fact that he didn't give up in his dreams and constantly work hard to get to where he is right now just inspires me a lot. And at the same time, it teaches me that dreams do come true, it just depends on how much effort you put into achieving them. It's cliche because it's true.

It's not about the money, money, money!

2011-12-20T23:52:00.007+08:00

#nowplaying Price Tag - Jessie J

Ok so I decided to officially self-declare that I am such a compulsively impulsive shopper. I can't control my spending I feel like I need to spend money all the time, even on things that I don't even need.

I spend $130 within just 3 days on 1)a lot of taxi fare 2)manicure 3)food 4)Dolly magazine 5)1 cup of frozen yogurt from frolicks 5)Sarpinos Pizza delivery

THIS. IS. SO. BAD. I have no self-control whatsoever. And I was browsing through forever21.com there are soooo many clothes I wanna buy but I don't have the money grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Why am I such a shopaholic? And I have yet to buy my school things like school uniform, stationery and school shoes for next year. How now brown cow I want money to drop from the sky so I can shop till I drop. I wish I can use monopoly money to shop then it would solve my no-money problem. I want money money money like loads of it I wanna be rich. Ughhh I hate how I make myself sound so materialistic. But let's face it, money can buy us happiness because we're living in a materialistic world where we are never satisfied with the things we have. We always want more than what we can't and don't have. In other words, we're all greedy sigh. I can't deny that though, I can be greedy. Life is really sad :(

According to one wise friend of mine, "money is always an issue" how true.

Is this how it's supposed to be?

2011-12-19T02:25:00.002+08:00

Just got back from Val's house. It's been a while since I last saw everyone. Made new friends. Catch up a little. Drank a little... too much but I still got home sober and safe. I have a freaking poa text later at 9am which I haven't even studied for. I wanna study now but I'm too scared to even go to the kitchen cause I'm alone at home (mum's outta town) and it's freaking 3 in the morning it's so dark. Yes it's dark because I don't dare to switch on the lights scared later ghost come since I'm the only one awake. Life sucks.

Sometimes, I don't even know who I am anymore. This is sad.

Take me back to where it all began,

2011-12-16T19:03:00.005+08:00

It's funny how I was homesick when I was in Slovenia and all I wanted was to go home but now, all I want is to go back to Slovenia. Sighhhh I could really use a short trip to get away, again ~

I love this photo so so so much hehe it's like the best moment the best photo ever the best damn thing that ever happened to me (not really but I'm just saying) coz he's uber uber hot giler ttm and I swear I could stare at the photo all day all night what the fuck ^^ hahahahaha #nowplaying Loca People - Sak Noel

Alawiyyah's mini-adventure in search of bubur kampong,

2011-12-16T14:16:00.001+08:00

It all started in Bukit Batok. I went to have breakfast and collected my geog files from Aizat. Then I got a call from my mum saying that grandma wanted to eat bubur kampong. So I decided to go to Lestari to see if there was any but unfortunately there wasn't. I spent 24 cents on the bus fare btw #justsaying hahaha. So I took mrt to go Marsiling to search for bubur kampong. I walked and walked and kept walking, went to a few coffee shops and asked for bubur kampong but none of the shops had it so I kept walking and... got lost. So I decided to give up and find my way to my grandma's place. I had an interesting mini-adventure lollllll.

Home with grandma!

2011-12-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

Grandmother was hospitalised after a few days I got back from Slovenia. I've been taking care of her ever since and it pains me to see she's fighting for her life not knowing there isn't much time left :'(

Look who's back!

2011-12-12T23:07:00.006+08:00

Zdravo! ^^

If you guys are wondering what in the world I just said, it was hello in Slovein! Mentang-mentang baru balik from Slovenia hahaha.

Slovenia here I come ~~

2011-11-21T16:14:00.006+08:00

I can't believe it. I'm flying off to Slovenia in about 7hrs time! I'm excited + scared. Because I've never been away from home for that long in a farfar away country before. I just hope that I'll enjoy and have fun during the trip! So I don't think I'll be updating my blog for the next 10 days unless I get to access the internet in Slovenia. Till then, don't miss me ok! But for those who already do, here's a picture of me to stare and be mesmerised by it while I'm gone hahahahaha. LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS SEE YOU GUYS WHEN I'M BACK MWAHHH ~ You know you love me! X

"Don't get involve with some blonde dude uh!" - Koh.

IDIOT hahahahaha he knows me too well. But if there's a hot blondie, why not right? hahahahaha

Everything happens for a reason,

2011-11-19T13:35:00.005+08:00

I don't like to believe in such cliches but after what happened during PW's Oral Presentation, I'm starting to think that everything that happened, could have happened for a reason. My OP was on the 15th Nov but I never had the chance to blog about it because I've been too busy going out and going back to school. Either that or I'm just plain lazy lol. So anw, OP went amazingly wonderfully great. Up till today, I feel like I can't even describe how it went because it turned out very smoothly and better than expected.

I will never forget my OP day because:
1. I forgot to bring my IC. I had to give my EZ-link card but it's partially distorted and cannot see my face. Thank god my examiners (Mdm Loy and Ms Huang) didn't mind because if it had been Mr Idris, he'd have probably scolded me!
2. I FORGOT TO BRING MY SCRIPTS. Like wtf, I was already nervous enough, I just had to forget to bring my scripts and I was the first speaker -.- At that time, it felt like things could not be worst. But now, I look back and cannot stop laughing at how panicky I got lolol.
3. MY GROUP HAD 5 EXAMINERS. 2 internal, 2 external and Mr Cheung.
4. I had no choice but to hide my nervousness and start the presentation. In the end, it went well. I'm so proud of myself ^^ hehe
5. Jess and ZM did a great job too!

All in all, OP was (Y). I had a blast actually. Which was why I thought that maybe it turned out the way it did for a reason. I feel like maybe God knew that I could present well w/o my script so he made me forget to bring my scripts to prove to myself that I can do a good job, I just need to have the confidence and believe in myself. I didn't think I'd say this but I kinda miss PW lol or maybe I just miss Jessie's constant nagging! Hahaha

Now I'm just enjoying my hols. I'm going to Slovenia in 2 days! Stoked for the trip since it's my first time flying to Europe. Mind you, we'll transit at PARIS. Ok I know it's not like I could get out of the airport but just thinking of how I'll be stepping on the land of Paris and breathing its air already make me excited ^^ lol. I haven't finished packing. SO LAZY LAH I FEEL SO TIRED EVERYTIME I THINK OF WHAT TO WEAR FOR 10 DAYS lol. Must bring a lot of thick sweaters because we're gonna climb mountains and look at caves and the temperature could go as low as -4 degrees HOW CRAZY IS THAT. But other than that, I definitely cannot wait to see Slovenia. I could really use this trip to sort out my thoughts and plans for next year when I get back.

Enjoy your holidays everyone! X

PW

2011-11-13T15:24:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone i'm now at Zi Ming's house with Jessie to do PW. We're in a bit of trouble actually because Jess lent her thumbdrive to Reyna and I forgot to bring mine so we had to use Zi Ming's. BUT... Zi Ming's thumbdrive can only hold 119MB -.- LIKE WTH THAT'S NOT EVEN 1GB lol. And we need to save our video for PW Oral Presentation but right now we cannot coz the video is like 144MB -.- we cannot send to email coz the file is too big and we cannot save in Zi Ming's thumbdrive coz Zi Ming's thumbdrive's space is too small. Hence, we found a solution. Which is to upload it on my blog. (Cross my fingers and hope it works)

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My mission to upload the video on my blog obviously failed b/c the file is too big. So we have decided to come up with another solution which is to upload on youtube... lol. Ok time to practise my OP now! Chiaoooo~

What's your passion?

2011-11-11T21:20:00.007+08:00

... the saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last.

- Dear John

As much as I hate to admit, it makes perfect sense. Without having a goal in life, you live life aimlessly. You settle for just about anything you get even though it's not what you really want. It got me thinking though... so, what's my passion? I do know that I want to go to University and major in Psychology but why do I keep doubting myself? Why do I lack motivation?

I just did a time-table for my revision when I come back from Slovenia in Dec. I can't wait to start studying! I'm gna make sure I don't repeat my mistakes next year. I will study and prove Mr Ang wrong. I will prove to people who thought I couldn't make it that I actually can get good grades. But of course most importantly, it's to prove to myself that I can achieve anything I want if I put my mind to it.

X

Malay A lvl...

2011-11-01T00:55:00.008+08:00

Hi.

Today was 'A' LEVEL MALAY EXAM and I'm feeling pretty good about it. Idk maybe I'm a little over confident but at least it's better than feeling like I screwed up, no? I've never felt so prepared and so good about my Malay papers before so I'm hoping this is a good sign (keeping my fingers crossed) though it's a little bit scary b/c I thought the paper was manageable... but everyone else seems to think otherwise. Oh well, it's over and done! (Y)

I shall go back to doing math b/c it's only 9 days left!!!!!! KILL ME MY BASICS STILL NOT VERY GOOD EH. @Alawiyyah don't give up! Come on let's go!

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Don't let anyone tell you that you're not strong enough,

2011-10-30T12:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE.

I was looking at old photos again when I found this hahahahahahahaha this was taken last year during Christmas eve when Syah and Sher crash at my workplace. We did a lot of crazy things and it was fun. I can't even remember when was the last time I felt fun. I suddenly stopped being fun and became boring lol. I wanna be fun again!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm staying at home today b/c I wanna study and be well-prepared for Malay paper tmr! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, I'M TAKING MY A LEVEL MALAY PAPER TMR??!!!!!! I, for one, have never pictured myself sitting in a hall doing A level examination. I've always thought I would go to poly but well, I guess I thought wrong b/c just like they say, things don't always turn out as planned. Whatever that comes my way, I have learnt and realised that it may or may not be what I want but I have to make the best out of it. So instead of whining and complaining about how tough A levels can be, I'll make sure I study hard and achieve my goals. ARTS & SOCIAL SCIENCE IN NUS. @Alawiyyah All the way, don't give up!

But that's what I always tend to do. GIVE UP. I give up so easily so much so that I end up regretting. And I never learn. I repeat my mistakes all the time lol. I started playing for coach's club in August because I really love Touch Rugby. But when it got tough (sch + PW + exams + training = TIRING AS HELL) I told coach I needed to focus on my studies and dropped Touch. I CHOSE to give up Touch because I was just not strong enough to challenge myself. Sigh how disappointing @Aalwiyyah :(

Whatever it is, I can't change the decisions I made because it's in the past but, I can make sure that I make decisions that I won't regret from now on. I should keep looking forward and do better. Let's just focus on the important things right now:
1. Malay exam tmr
2. Math exam on 10th Nov
3. PW presentation on 15th Nov

And my end of year trip to SLOVENIA hehehe I cannot believe I'm going to Slovenia I'm super duper excited ^^ Will blog about that more the next time I log in. Now I have to go back to doing PW and malay!

X

self-reflection

2011-10-23T01:16:00.003+08:00

Hi everybody.

This week was just... mad crazy, like 'a pain in the ass' crazy. I'm glad I survived a bad week coz it always make me realize that no matter how tough or difficult of a situation that you're gg through, it will eventually get better. It always does. I cannot wait for A's and PW oral presentation to be over so that I'll be free like a bird. At the moment, I just feel so tied down with school and training and managing my time so that I can study + train + play for games every Sat + spend time w family and friends + alone time for myself.... It's really tiring.

I did self-reflection for the mistakes that I did this week. And it got me thinking that I've been into a lot of trouble with mum lately only b/c I've been trying to rebel against her. And when she gets mad at me (which she have every right to be) I get angry too, feeling like she don't u/s me and that causes me to be unhappy. I hate being unhappy coz I feel moody all the time I don't even smile which is so tiring coz I'm not like that. I like to laugh and be happy and joke around and have fun.

Old sweet memories!

2011-10-22T23:56:00.005+08:00

Omg I was browsing through Keenah's photos on facebook when I saw old photos of me and Q from last year! I'm gna upload it coz I wanna share with everybody how retarded and cute I look hahahahahaha k kidding lah I just wanna upload it coz I looked really happy in the photos. And I can't even remember when was the last time I felt... happy. Like 'I don't care about what people thinks as long ah I'm happy' happy, you know. (No you don't hahahaha)

OK THIS IS MY FAV #1 PHOTO COZ MY EXPRESSION DAMN FUNNY hehehehe

I miss the old times a lot! :'( But things will continue to change and the only thing that remains is memories.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,

2011-08-15T00:15:00.009+08:00

I'm happy to say that this weekend was probably the most productive weekend I ever had. I finished all my malay hw, started on geog tutorials and I'm gonna study for A/Cs test that I have tmr right after I finish with this post. I hope I can keep this up consistently until my exams.

I'm not working atm cause I realised I have no time at all for my studies. So I finally gathered my courage and told Mel (my manager) that I needed a study break till maybe Oct to study my ass off. I am very lagging behind with studies, I need to do a lot of catch up and make full use of the limited time I am left with before promo 2 and A level comes. I cleared the promotion criteria for promo 1 this year. But the results were still horrible as it was way below my expectations. I got a 'U' for A/Cs... An 'A' student getting a 'U' well that can only mean one thing. I NEED TO WAKE UP, STOP PROCRASTINATING AND REALISE THAT I HAVE NO TIME TO BE COMPLACENT. Recently, I can't deny that I've been a little distracted and losing my focus. All the "I must study hard and not get distracted" bullshit that I said in July was... all bullshit talk lol. I only realised yesterday that I've so much to study before the exams and need to start asap.

I'm sorry if I'm being selfish but I have no time for anything else except for studies and my family/friends atm. Boys are nowhere near in my priority list I hope you understand I'm just gonna be distracted. My priorities right now are: 1) studies 2) family/friends 3) Touch I'm not sure about the future though anything can happen.

2011-08-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

Keep calm and stay strong!

2011-08-11T02:37:00.002+08:00

I REALLY HATE DRAMAS.

You were upset that I wasn't talking to you but now you're ignoring me? LOL WELL DONE F. You told everyone about our argument like it was all my fault. When really, you were the one who didn't appreciate me. So I gave up caring because you don't even care. Then you felt upset cause I didn't care about you anymore and told all your friends. And all your friends talked to me like it was my fault when they don't even know what happened. You made me feel bad so I tried to talk to you and now you're ignoring me. Well you know what, I don't need a friend like you. I can't believe we're so fucking childish lol lol lol lol.

2011-08-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

Dear best friend, I really miss you. I wish we could be as close as before :(

2011-07-31T13:33:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure of what's gonna happen from now on. Yes I do feel happy atm but I'm not ready for changes. I'm so used to being independent and alone I don't want that to change.

Call me selfish.

2011-07-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

Fyi my friend, I didn't leave you and I never would have if you had not shut me out. I cared and wanted to be there for you when I found out about your dad but you misread my actions and intentions and chose to ignore me. And now you're tweeting about being lonely blah blah blah and all that shit it just irks me. Don't tweet about it like it was all my fault. It wasn't. It still isn't. So don't be mad if I'm not talking to you. I haven't changed. You have. I haven't gotten new friends. You did.

say whutttt?

2011-07-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

hiiiiiiii :> My mum's coming home late from work tonight so that means it's just me alone at home woohooo lol and I guess being alone made me felt a little... lonely and emotional? so I guess i'm just gonna rant it all out here lol.

I found out how I did for promos already. I GOT A FUCKING 'U' FOR A/Cs like wtf I'm an 'A' student for accountings and I got a fucking 'U' for overall which is unbelievable cause I always ace my weekly tests but... I guess then again maybe it was due to my paper 1 which I got 20/60 and I only got an 'E' for CTs so that's prolly how my marks got pulled down but like wtf I still can't believe I fucking failed a/cs!!!! >:( And unexpectedly, I got 'D' for both my geog and mob! lol seriously joke sia

2011-07-19T22:09:00.003+08:00

I feel so... neglected? lol I really hope you reply my text.

Set fire to the rain,

2011-07-17T01:01:00.004+08:00

I've soooo many things to blog about cause A LOT has happened and a lot of things have been lingering on my mind lately! I wanted to blog about how I did for my exams so far, updates on Touch Rug and my life as a whole (been really busy with sch + work) buttttt... I think I'll blog proper next time when I've gotten all my results, when it's the right time to talk about Touch Rug and when my life is more stable lol. My life's pretty messy atm but still under control lol.

I just got an email from J!!!!! ^^ Missing you ttm! Take care! <3

2011-07-16T14:37:00.001+08:00

"Don’t dwell on the past. Your history can’t be erased, but your future has yet to be written. Make the most of what’s going to happen instead of worrying about what you can’t change. Don’t waste your time being sad, because you’re wasting away moments in which you could be happy."

That’s right. My girls and I will train extremely hard and make sure we win every upcoming competitions that we have. We will win and show everybody out there what Oryx can achieve even if we don’t have anyone’s support. We don’t give a fuck about what other people think. You wanna shut down our cca? We’ll work even harder to prove that you’re wrong about us!

Wake me up in San Francisco ~

2011-07-08T18:37:00.006+08:00

I am relieved that exams are over! And so is my A level malay oral exam! Feels like a whole lot of load off my shoulder. I found out that I'm only left with 3 months 22 days to H1 malay written A level exam and 4 months 2 days to H1 math A level exam. That is very little time left which means no more procrastination I have to start studying already and I'm gonna draw up a 'study time-table' for myself heh heh. I'm gonna do whatever it takes to get my A for math and B for malay! To quote Mahatma Gandhi, "You must be the change you want to see in the world" Feeling very motivated atm hehe :> It's gonna be a rough time ahead I hope I can tahan until end of this year. Shall constantly motivate myself @Alawiyyah DON'T GIVE UP KEEP PUSHING YOURSELF COZ YOU CAN ACHIEVE ANYTH AS LONG AS YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO IT.

In the mean time... I'm very upset that I can't get my TOMS shoes cause it has pig lining! LIKE WTF BABI BETUL haha. I almost ordered my shoes online cause there wasn't any indication that it had pig skin I had them in my cart alrd!!! Thank god I tweeted before ordering! BUT... now idk if I shld get ZAPI shoes from NUM!!!!!!!! It's similar to TOMS.

NUM's having a sale atm buy one pair and get the next at half price! SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD DEAL hehe. And I've tried on the shoes super comfortable! But it ain't the same if it isn't TOMS and I don't wanna buy on impulse!! I really like the yellow though so striking heh heh. BLEGHHH I really hate this I'll prolly just get it lol.

2011-07-01T23:52:00.003+08:00

I know I said I wanna hate and bitch less but I have to rant it all out right now!

Honestly, your tweets irks me. It's disgusting and attention seeking. Like seriously, you keep tweeting that you have nobody and that you're lonely? I've always got your back. You just didn't realise that. Then you heard some stupid fucked up rumour about me liking you and then you just shut me out of your life. I called and texted but you didn't even bother to reply. I cannot believe I was worried for you about your dad. I did all I could to be there for you but you didn't even appreciate it. Well apparently it seemed like you've found new friends. Good for you, hope you're happy.

#BELOQUEENNO1

2011-06-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

Just when I was doing math, my calculator suddenly shut off by itself. So I thought my GC died on me and I started to panic and got really annoyed thinking that my calculator had to die on me just the night before my math paper then I found out that... my GC did not die it just needed new set of batteries!!! Hahahahaha I spent a good 5 minutes laughing at myself like really, that was the most belo moment ever. I am proud to announce that my GC is alive now I just revived it by replacing the old batteries lol. #bimbomuch

Had Accounts paper 1 today. I have no comments cause I know I totally flunked it without a doubt!! I can forget about my A lol I'd be lucky enough to get E and that is if I do well for paper 2. I can say pretty much the same for the rest of my papers actually. I shall not bother in hoping for the best cause it's of no use considering the fact that I hardly put in any effort to study for exams. I don't know when I'll ever wake up and realise that I have to stop procrastinating. It's pissing me off ugh!!!!! Why do I always wait till I hit rock bottom to get myself back up on my feet. #typical GOTTA QUIT GIVING MYSELF EXCUSES. I should not give up now I still have geog and A/Cs paper 2... it's all in the mind alawiyyah!!!! I'm trying to be a better person. I want to be a nicer person by which I mean, less gossipping/bitching/hating, more focus on my own life, be nicer to people, give more etc etc. I want to appreciate life more. I've always been so angry and pissed with life I should stop doing do. I'm missing out so much on life.

Missing you too J!

It's okay not to be okay,

2011-06-28T20:13:00.004+08:00

Feeling super unprepared for tmr's geog paper cause I haven't started studying... no one to blame except for me!!! Sigh I don't know what's happening to me it's like I keep telling myself to get my priorities right yet all I do is procrastinate!!! I was feeling a little stress just now so I decided to go for a walk to Holland to clear my mind. In the end, I got myself dark mocha frap from starbucks and 2 huge scoops of choc ice cream from TDS and now I'm feeling better :) And since I'm feeling better, I shall start on geog now.....

Hope to talk to J proper soon miss him ttm!!!!!!!! Been really busy ugh!

2011-06-22T01:41:00.003+08:00

HI I'm in a good mood now cause I just created skype super excited to use it lah hehehehe :>

ok it's 6 days to exams and I haven't started studying at all sigh what's new about me -.- so I shall attempt to cramp 4 subjects in my head in these 6 days that I am left with. But I'm going over to Syah's house tmr, meeting Fithri on Thurs and captains meeting on Fri which would prolly take the whole day and it's family day on weekends, so I'm left with... well one day to study propoer lol lol. Sigh so much for using the hols to catch up on studies....

If I knew then what I know now,

2011-06-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

I've got a lot of things on my mind right now :(

Ever since Justin left, I have been extremely emotional lol lol I guess I only realised now how important friendship is to me. Everyday I keep thinking what if I had made an effort to maintain my friendship with my close friends from sec sch? What if I had not shut them out of my life last year when I first got into MI, then would things be different from it is now? I really miss my friends it's like we hardly speak to each other now and when we do, it gets kinda akward. I really miss you Syah, Koh, Val, Bibah, Charm, Tee, Shao, Sher and Chew :'( If only...

2011-06-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

Koh just left for Australia to study there and he's not coming back until September to visit us! I keep telling myself time will pass by quickly but who am I kidding, 3 months is a freaking long time!!!! :'( And even though we grew apart for the past year cause we're in different schools etc and are not so close anymore, I still feel very sad! :( Gonna miss him and his retardness so much! Wanted to write him a long letter but decided to keep it short cause I don't wanna be too emotional lol lol lol. Justin, I hope you stay safe and healthy in Melbourne! Do fb/email/skype us regularly LUV YOU xx

:(

Nobody's perfect ~~

2011-05-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

HIIIIIII. Today, I broke down. It happened completely unexpected at a very public place and the funny thing was that nobody saw or heard that I was crying!!!! lol lol lol lol so funny! This shows that Singaporeans are oblivious to their surroundings.

Anyway now that JC League is over, it's time to divert my energy and focus on my studies! No more distractions whatsoever!! No more skipping school/lessons. No more being late for school. I have only 4 priorities atm and I'm gonna make sure nothing will stop me from doing what I want and need to do in my life. 1) I need to catch up with whatever lessons I've missed during JC league and start studying for promos 2) TRUG. I will lead the team the best that I can 3) I want to spend more time with my family and friends 4) Work.

I CAN DO THIS. I AM A STRONG INDEPENDENT YOUNG LADY :)

2011-04-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'm having one of those bad days when you feel really down but you just don't know why or what's wrong. Sigh. I need a break. I need a kit kat lol lol lol. OK I'M SERIOUS. I REALLY NEED A BREAK I FEEL SO... STRESS TIRED BUSY CRAZY TTM THAT I COULD JUST BREAK DOWN ANYTIME SOON. Wouldn't it be nice (... the cadbury choc advertisement song starts playing in my head zzzz potong steam only) if someone could just give me a random msg/note/letter telling me it'll all be fine in no time so I should stay strong no matter and that he/she'll always be there for me. Sigh But I've got no one :( I made a new discovery today ftw can also = fucktheworld hahahahaha ok I'm so lame. I just don't feel like doing anything now I just wanna make sure I win the 3 games I'm left with for JC League and start studying like mad sigh. I have a lot on my mind right now... :'(

2011-04-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

I have learnt that the best way to deal with a bitch who loves to bitch about me is just to ignore her! Cause no matter what I do, she'll still continue to judge and bitch. She can do whatever she wants as long as she's happy :)

lots of love,

2011-04-09T00:04:00.001+08:00

Shao, Sher, Siti, Syah <3

2011-04-08T23:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JUSTIN KOH JIANWEN! :)

2011-04-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

No point regretting that it didn’t last
No point regretting that it went so fast
Time that we had was like sand in our hand
But when I look behind
I’m so glad that you were mine

2011-04-02T00:20:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiii.

Life's been good ^^ How bout yours?

2011-03-24T22:13:00.004+08:00

I don't know why but I've been feeling really demoralised the past few days! It's like whatever I do, I can't do it right. No matter how hard I tried, how much effort I put in, I just can't get it right. I feel pressured and I have no confidence and I feel like a lousy piece of shit >:( I'm not prepared to give up, but how do I pick myself up again after falling so hard? :'(

There's training tomorrow and to be honest, I've been dreading it lol sigh. I need to stop feeling so fucked. LET GO AND MOVE ON. TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY. #praywithallmyheart

say yay!

2011-03-08T21:35:00.004+08:00

TODAY WAS NO-SCHOOL DAY FOR MI STUDENTS. SAY YAY! Hahahahaha woo to the hoo babeeeh ^^

2011-03-06T21:36:00.001+08:00

It's been hell of a week. I can't wait for the holidays!!!!

2011-03-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

Grow up Wiy. You can't keep crying all the time. You can't let your mind control you.

Wiyyah Oh Wiyyah,

2011-02-27T22:52:00.005+08:00

I really like the title of my post. Credit goes to House. I think he was inspired by Kesha's song - We R Who We R... Lol. Ok there's two things I have to share before I start ranting. 1. I'M UBER CHAUTAH NOW LIKE TTM AND MY TAN LINE DAMN UGLY 2. Anyone got lobang for jobs? I need $$$$ :(

Anyhooo, my weekend was somewhat boring. Well specifically, my Sunday was boring ttm. Did nothing except for watching movies online and rot at home. I was alone at home since mum went to Malaysia with grandparents and I had no plans (people cancelled on me!!!!) so I just stayed at home watching 1. Wild Child 2. The Back-Up Plan 3. Confessions of a Shopaholic 4. Hellcats S1E16 5. When In Rome lol and I snacked a lot too omg!! I felt kinda pathetic today because firstly, I didn't have my cell phone to call people and secondly, if you'd realised most of the movies I watched were about love stories, which made me felt even more depressed than I already am lol. Ugh fuck that feeling. So what if I have no love life? I'm really happy to have my friends by my side! :)

My saturday was definitely better!! Went for training in the morning. And... yesterday's training felt weird. IN A GOOD WAY. I felt like I've accomplished something at the end of training and now that I thought about it, I actually did. 1. I learnt to be composed 2. I learnt to trust and have confidence 3. I have learnt to react to defenders' reaction 4. coach said I can playmake ^^ hehehehe that was the best moment in my life!! lol ok hopefully it stays this way every training and during JC league because I really want this so bad only god knows how much. I know I can do it, cause it's all in the mind! After training, went down to Turf City with the girls to watch the games. I felt inspired and motivated to train harder now hehe ^^ (+ I MET SYAH. I SHOUTED HER NAME FROM FAR AND WE RAN TO EACH OTHER TO HUG IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIELD, like titanic show only!! Hahaha) So I went home after that cause my nephew came over to my house for dinner! I had a headache so I asked him to massage my forehead for me and he kissed my forehead! I have the cutest/sweetest nephew ever! :')

Ok so that was how my weekend went. Hopefully yall had a good weekend too cause it's back to school tomorrow and I'll be getting back my CTs results... HORROR!! Oh yes, talking about CTs, the past weeks have been hell lol mugging my ass off. Crossing my fingers for the results. Not expecting too much out of it though sigh cause expectation is the root to all disappoinments! And whattheshitzzzzzz, it's gonna me March already?!?!?! WHY SO FAST? Well anyways, have a good week ahead!

xx

Stop taking life for granted,

2011-02-27T22:24:00.006+08:00

5 steps to be happy:
1. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control
2. Don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget
3. Let go of things that are in the past
4. Forget things that aren't worth remembering
5. Stop taking things for granted

Because I want to be happy. I deserve to be happy. Everyone deserves to be happy.

xx

I NEED MOTIVATION

2011-02-23T00:22:00.004+08:00

I should be studying math right now cause I have a math paper to sit for in less than 12 hours!!!! BUT I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP. Cause I've been doing math questions since afternoon and I still don't know how to do Applications of Differentiation + the whole chapter of Integration. And now I don't even have the motivation to do binomial at all... WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I'M MENTALLY CHALLENGED EVERY SINGLE TIME I DO MATH. It's so ironic cause I really like math and it's one of my fav subjects. I feel so stupid :'(

I don't wanna give up cause I know that I'll be disappointed if I fail math knowing that I didn't try hard enough. But at the same time, giving up seems so much easier sigh :(

OK SO I'M GOING TO MAKE MYSELF HOT TEA TO CALM MYSELF DOWN AND GO TO BED. WAKE UP EARLY TOMORROW TO DO MATH AGAIN.

Why wiy, why?

2011-02-13T23:46:00.006+08:00

This weekend was sooo unproductive! Didn't touch my homework at all + no studying was done!!! Ughhhhh >:( Here's what I did on...

Saturday:
Had training in the morning @ bugis field! I was in my danger zone so training didn't really go well for me :( I have to stop thinking too much and stop feeling scared! I wanna play for JC League so bad!! I better stop feeling pressurised and start stepping up!!!! :'(

Anyhooo, cabbed down to Burger Shack @ Bukit Timah after training to meet Tee, Charm and Koh for lunch! Haven't seen them in a long time it was nice to catch up with them! :) Went home around 4 plus and watched movies online till midnight and went to sleep after that lol. Homework not touched at all!!!

Today (Sunday): Firstly, happy 18th birthday Justin Chew! :) Hope you liked the present I gave you hehe!

So today, I woke up at 12 noon. After having lunch, I decided to do revision for geography. Read a few lines of my notes and ended up using the laptop till 3pm lol. Then I realised I had to bathe and get ready to meet Shao and Chew at Airport for dinner and to send Sher cause she's going back to Aus so I didn't even touch my homework in the end!!! Gaahhhh I have 2 tests tomorrow somemore eh and haven't studied at all!! :( I just got home from Airport so lazy and tired to do my homework and study now!!

FML. And the fact that tomorrow's Valentine's Day..... SIANNNZZZZZ.

2011-02-08T23:26:00.004+08:00

"Fear is only as real as you make it. It's created in your mind so it can be overcome by your mind."

Makes sense? ... ABSOLUTELY.

Yesterday was like THE BEST day of my life! Reasons being... 1. I got full marks for a/cs test 2. I got 16/20 for math test and 3. I passed GP paper 1 for the first time (everrrr!!! lol) and even got praised by Mr Ang ^^ hehehe I swear the feeling damn shiok sia it's like all my studying and staying up till late at night to do my homework paid off! I have to keep up the good work! (Y) I think I'm crazy but I'm a little excited for common test lol! But only because I want to get it over and done with! AND BECAUSE OF CT, I CANNOT WATCH MY KOREAN BREAKDANCE MUSICAL! I AM VELLY VELLY SAD TTM :'(

xx

2011-01-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Why am I feeling like this? :'( Get your priorities right, Wiy.

a brand new year calls for a brand new start,

2011-01-04T23:44:00.004+08:00

THREE SIMPLE RULES THIS 2011.

-If you do not go after what you want, you’ll never have it.
-If you do not ask, the answer will always be a “No”.
-If you do not step forward, you’ll always be in the same place.

May we all have the courage to take more risks in 2011 and see where our brave heart can take us.

This year, I decided not to do any new year resolutions cause let's face it, it never happens lol. I just wanna do things that makes me really happy. I've always been in my comfort zone so this year, I'd like to take risks whenever I can and try doing new things cause when unexpected things happen, those are the actual moments that you'll never forget in life. I'm gonna be a better person this year. I'll start giving more and expect less. Mates before dates lol cause nothing is more important than your friends and family! I'll stop worrying about my insecurities. I wanna be the person that I am last year when I first joined touch. The person who dares to take risks and try something new and not caring what the outcame would be. Sigh I hope everything will go well this year.

Have a blessed new year everyone! xx

Happy new year!

2011-01-04T13:06:00.001+08:00

How did you spend your new year? Mine was gr8. Spent it with friends :)

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love,

2010-12-29T19:57:00.004+08:00

Had a blast with Sher and Syah today! Went to have our dessert buffet @ Four Seasons Hotel earlier in the afternoon!! Delish food + awesome company = luv! :')

Santa baby, hurry down the chimney tonight ~

2010-12-26T23:29:00.005+08:00

Sher's back from Australia!!!! ^^ Spent my christmas eve with Sher and Syah again this year! If only Shao wasn't in Hong Kong then she could have joined us for dinner :(

We had dinner @ Ichiban Boshi and OMG DINNER WAS CRAZY THERE WERE LOTS OF LAUGHING AND TALKING AND RECALLING BACK THE FUNNY OLD MEMORIES AND MORE LAUGHING :') I can't wait for wednesday! Meeting up with Syah and Sher for dessert buffet @ Four Seasons!!!! Good food + good company = luv :) C U SOON GERLS :*

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! xx

It's cliche because it's true.

2010-12-23T00:54:00.001+08:00

As cliche as it may sounds, I believe that if you're passionate about your dreams and willing to go all the way to achieve it, then you will succeed because winners never guit. I can't deny that sometimes, I do give up without even trying but it's human nature. It's because we're afraid of the outcome and the consequences, it's because we're always easily discouraged often in life when things don't go our way.

2010-12-22T23:33:00.004+08:00

Heeeellluuuhhh! Life's been good. Busy and tiring but still good cause I've been feeling happy. I realised I just need my awesome friends and family to be by my side because they're the ones that makes me happy :)

It's my nephew's birthday tomorrow!!!!! Happy 2nd Birthday Alyf Adly. Auntie will always love you! And I know my nephew loves me too hehehe. Cause when I asked him "Alyf sayang auntie macam mane?" He replied, "Alyf sayang auntie di hati" :)

I just watched Tron Legacy today with Amira and Nadz. THE MOVIE IS INTERESTING MUST GO WATCH, I RECOMMEND! Ok initially I didn't wanna watch it cause action-movies is soooo not me but I was forced to, TSK! So for someone who don't like action-movies and to recommend for yall to catch it, it must have been one hell of a good movie!! Though half the time I was asking Nadz what was happening cause I soooo did not understand the movie lol. AND I DID NOT KNOW THERE'S A POPCORN SHOP AT CITYLINK THAT SELLS CHEESECORN!!! My faourite! I'm actually eating it while typing this out hehehe it's yummmehh! And cheese always makes me highhhhh ~ haha

I have facial appointment tmr ^^ Can't wait!! I too cannot wait to get my pay because I wanna go shopping!!! Hehehe I can never have enough clothes :( I need to start saving if I wanna go aussie sigh.

2010-11-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

I've no idea what happened to stepping up I was completely in my danger zone during training today :( lol and I can't play middle tomorrow sigh. Oh well so what if I screwed up today right. I'll let it go and play my best tomorrow and change and improve. I CAN DO IT :) OKiiieeeeee gonna email Haziq (I wanna go aussssieeee) and sleep and wake up like fucking early tomorrow 5.30am and meet the girls at boon lay mrt at 6.45am!!! Pray that I can wake up and not oversleep like last week lol cause I'm broke I can't afford to cab!! Hopefully I get to see D.A. at JJ tomorrow hehehehehe ^^ After the game, I'll be meeting up with Keenah, Q, Putri, Farhan and Iman for dinner (Y) Can't wait!!

xx

2010-11-23T00:23:00.006+08:00

Promise - Vanessa Hudgens

"They say what doesn't kill you can make you strong"
And because you can go to hell. You and her both :)

2010-11-20T23:24:00.004+08:00

HI. I'm so fucking tired I need rest and sleep!!!!! But since everyone is so busy that I have no one to talk to, I shall blog a little about how I feel today before going to bed.

Today's games were super duper awesome even though we did get thrashed really crazy bad lol. But none of the Penguins gave up! (CAN YOU BELIEVE MY TEAM IS ACTUALLY CALLED PENGUINS. IT'S CUTEZXXX ^^) We had fun for all 5 games! I learnt so many things from today's games and I'm definitely gonna put what I've learnt into use by changing and improving myself so that I can be a better individual and a leader. I was the captain for year ones team today. I learnt that your team depends on you so much that you can't afford to fall apart because if you do, the team will fall apart too. I felt that today I was more composed and played a good game giving instructions and all. I WAS ACTUALLY SCOLDING MY TEAM WHEN THEY DID SOMETHING WRONG. Heh seeeee I can be fierce! Lol. And I can't panic cause if I do I won't know what to do and if I don't give clear instructions my team wouldn't know what to do either. I also learnt that even if you're tired you cannot shut down on your team because you can't just think about yourself you have to think for the team. Touch is so different from gymnastics! etc etc ok I learnt a lottttt more but I'm just too tired I'm gonna doze off anytime soon.

My point is, I'm ready to step up! (CHEYYYYYYYY lol) AND I LOVE MY TAN :) goodnight xx

dilemma

2010-11-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

I can't decide if I should work or go for beach touch (which is obviously way more fun!!) on Saturday :( I want to play so badly but Charis asked me first if I could work during the weekends and because I thought I had nothing on, I said yes. HOW NOW? :( sigh is anyone feeling me? lol

2010-11-11T23:51:00.004+08:00

OMG IN THE NEXT EPISODE OF 90210, ANNIE'S MUM AND ANNIE'S TEACHER ARE GONNA MAKE OUT! THE STORY COULD NOT GET ANYMORE INTERESTING THAN THIS, REALLY.

2010-11-07T01:57:00.000+08:00

I hope to be in the same class as you next year because that'd be really interesting :)

2010-11-06T20:22:00.007+08:00

HI.

OMG I'M CURRENTLY IN LOVE (OR YOU CAN ALSO CALL IT OBSSESSED) WITH A NEW KOREAN SONG BY SHINEE :) HEH.

And I can already hear Syah telling me "EEEEEE WHY THEIR HAIR SO UGLY?!!!" once she's watched this video. Lol well I'd have to agree with her on Onew's hair though. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE SHOULD COLOUR IT ORANGE :( But at least, Jonghyun's and Minho's great!! ^^ Heh.

2010-10-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

Maybe it would have been different if things had worked out for the two of us two years ago. Honestly, I regretted and I still regret not giving you a chance then. But I guess things happens for a reason. I'm glad we're still friends and are still so fucking close now.

2010-10-25T00:30:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU BITCHES TTM. ALL THE BEST FOR O LEVELS. I BELIEVE THAT YALL CAN DO IT SO PLS HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELVES K I'LL BE HERE PRAYING FOR THE BEST FOR YALL :) LUV U GUYS XX

2010-10-18T21:54:00.004+08:00

happy birthday asyraf! x

2010-10-14T23:51:00.003+08:00

I HONESTLY CANNOT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TOMORROW! (JUMPS FOR JOY) HEH HEH ^^ I'm so sick of holidays cause I either stay at home and rot all day or I go out and waste time doing things that brings no benefits at all. Going back to school is a good thing, it makes me focus on the more important stuffs in life like studies and making time for family and friends. I'm going to start my day tomorrow with positivity! (Y) I still haven't found my old-self yet. But it doesn't matter cause what/who I am now is what really matters. From now on, I'm going to look at things positively and start making wise decisions and do things that are important in life. Like once in a while yes I can have fun and all but I must know my limits cause life's too short to waste it. YAY OK I'M SO SUPER UBER EXCITED I DON'T KNOW WHY I GUESS I'M JUST INSPIRED TO LIVE LIFE LIKE LIVE LIFE MEANINGFULLY AND APPRECIATE LIFE lol.

And I've been spending a lot !!!! OMG I SWEAR SIA SOMEONE NEEDS TO CONFISCATE MY ATM CARD SO THAT I WILL STOP SPENDING. And my money is all spent on food/snacks (no wonder I gained 6kg!!!!), sheesha (like twice or thrice this month!) and cab fares! URRGGGHHHHH! CAN SOMEONE JUST SLAP ME IN THE FACE :( I haven't even shopped for this month and all the miscellaneous items like training kits/birthday presents (mind you I have 3 friends whose bday falls on oct) and etc all that need money too! Why can't money just fall from the sky? :( OK I NEED TO START SAVING !!! I'M GONNA WITHDRAW A SMALL AMOUNT OF MONEY FOR ME TO SPEND FOR THE REST OF OCT AND HIDE MY ATM CARD (and hopefully not forget where I place them)!!

+ IS ANYONE FREE ON 30TH OCT? IF YOU ARE TEXT/TWEET/EMAIL/FB ME OK. Cause there's this gym concert at RGS and I really wanna watch it but I've got no company :( So please be a kind soul and accompany me :) heh heh. The ticket is $12!

Okie I need to turn in there's school tomorrow and h2h talks with a big tub of ice cream with Farhan and Qamarul after sch :) XX

2010-10-09T12:32:00.009+08:00

OMG YALL HAVE TO WATCH THIS VIDEO. IT'S A CLIP OF A DANCING SCENE DONE BY THE 90210 GUYS WITH JUST HALF OF A FIREMAN SUIT ON :) I'M TYPING IN CAPS CAUSE I'M LIKE SUPER EXCITED TO SHARE THIS CLIP WITH YALL HEH HEH. OMG OMG OMG. Ok but it isn't the full scene though just a short clip if yall wanna watch the episode, can watch it on youtube 90210 ep 4 the bachelors! :) ENJOY ~

It's time to partayyyeeee! ~

2010-10-07T17:52:00.006+08:00

EXAMS. ARE. OVER. SAY. YAY!

Heh heh hi all! :) It's gonna be quite a lengthy post lol. But first, OK I'M JUST DAMN HAPPY THAT EXAMS ARE OVER FOR ME. BUT... I bet the results are gonna be shit sigh! Accounts today was a little tough, I don't know maybe I was over confident but yeah, I left my whole theory questions unanswered and that's like 40 marks gone! HABIS MATI! And geog was really bad as well lol I didn't do one 25marks essay, one 12marks DRQ question and the rest of it... well it's just crap! And let's not even talk about math! OMG I FELL ASLEEP DURING PAPER! So much for mugging my ass off lol. But I guess since exams are over, there's nothing I can do about it so I'm just gonna stay positive! And even if I have to retain... well at least I have Faris, Gab and House and we'll study hard together next year.

OK NOW THAT I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO DO ANYTHING BUT STUDY I AM GONNA MAKE SURE I GO SUNTAN cause I really cannot tahan my skin tone now it's uneven tanned, it's half brown half white! lol AND I NEED TO GO FOR FACIAL HEH HEH I SHALL MAKE AN APPOINTMENT THIS MONDAY omg I haven't gone for facial for almost 3 months and I've a lot of pimples on my face! Spa and a body massage sounds good too! I need to relax after stressing myself with exams! AND OF COURSE SHOPPING + MAKING PLANS AND HANGING OUT WITH MY UBER AWESOMEL FRIENDS :) Movies/picnics(!!!)/90210 and GG marathon/korean dramas that i've been wanting to watch but exams didn't allow me to do so ^^/sogurt with Faris/ZOUK (I hope my mum allows)/sheesha/rock climbing with Hanan and list go on and on! I can't wait ^^ And not forgetting, touch training! <3 Haven't trained for about 2 months and I swear I HAVE GAINED FUCKING A LOT OF WEIGHT. I GAINED 6 FUCKING KILOS. This is due to lack of exercise (k I swear no exercise at all except for pe lol) + eating non-stop especially during hari raya! I love food and I have to blame the food for being deliciously yummeh ~ tsk!

SIGH. OK NOW I THINK I'M GOING TO EMO A BIT AND TALK ABOUT LIFE lol. Life has been a little messed up :( I fucking miss you so much but I just have no courage to talk to you. Ugh, just fuck that. And I think I have changed lol. The past few weeks I've been feeling really angsty and I became really fake, bitcy and mean and I feel like there's a need to fit in in school because you know I'm not the cool type of girl so I tried to change myself so that people will like me blah blah blah you know all that fucked up shit that teenagers go through to find out who they really are. BUT I JUST HATE WHAT I'VE BECOME. I MISS MY OLD-SELF :( I miss being bubbly and happy and smiling all the time :( BUT AT THE SAME TIME I CAN'T KEEP SMILING AND PRETENDING LIKE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE IS ALL A-OKAY sigh. But I guess everyone feels the same way as I do because all of us have insecurities and we feel afraid sometimes of what people think/feel about us. Well eventually I figured that what really matters most is the true and real friends that I have who got my back and are always there to catch me when I fall.

OMG OK I'M SO SORRY FOR THE REALLY LONG POST I BET I SOUNDED BORING AT THE LAST PART THERE haha. Oh well for now I just wanna be happy and the first step to being happy is to not let any unnecessary things bring me down. I CAN DO THIS :) POSITIVITY ~

2010-10-04T23:25:00.005+08:00

Today's the start of exams! I cannot wait for exams to end 3 more papers to go!!! Lol Mob paper was manageable (Y). OMG I MUST HAVE BEEN THE MOST STUPID(EST) PERSON ON EARTH TO EVEN THOUGHT OF GIVING UP ON MOB FOR PROMOS. Lol it's actually easy if you study.

Now, time to chiong GEOG and MATH. KILL MEEEEEEEEZZZZZZ. BOTH PAPER ON SAME DAY ON WED STUPID SIA.

2010-09-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

2010-09-26T02:00:00.001+08:00

I’m holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far
You’re all I’m thinking of
I’m reaching for a love seem so far
I wonder how, I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

2010-09-21T22:31:00.004+08:00

Sis is in Batam right now. She went there to do voluntary work, helping out the less fortunate families and donating money and giving out food/clothes to the orphans and things like that. I wish I was at least half as nice as my sister is. I don't even know why people think I'm nice/too nice because I am not! Sigh I should really start treasuring the people around me and the things I have right now.

Monday we're cool, Friday we're geeks ~

2010-09-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland has been stuck on my head for the whole day and it is soooooo bloody irritating cause I only know one line of the song lol. You and me baby, we're stuck like glue ~

We shall mug our ass off and pass our 2 h2s for promos alright. Everything will turn out fine, we need to have faith. I've got your back and I know you have mine too. Luv you ttm thank you for being such a wonderful friend! <3
Anyway, today went by really quick. Ended school early and it felt kinda weird going home early cause we'd usually have training on fridays lol. Since our planned to eat sogurt yogurt failed on wed, we went after school today! ^^ heh heh I'VE BEEN EATING SOGURT DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES THIS WEEK AND EACH TIME I EAT, IT COSTS ME ABOUT $10 I'M SOOOO GONNE BE BROKE THIS MONTH :(

Oh and I really liked my hair today! Claudia tied braids for me! :)

NOW IT'S TIME TO STUHDAYEEEEEEEE. CIAO.

2010-09-16T22:40:00.004+08:00

MY NEPHEW IS SOOOOOOO CUTE HEH HEH. Was just talking to him on the phone a while ago ^^ It started like this: Mum was talking to sis over the phone then he started shouting "auntie! auntie!" so mum passed the phone cause my (little super uber cute ttm) nephew wanted to talk to me (awwww!) he kept talking and talking for 23 mins! lol I swear it was the cutest convo ever he was even singing along with me! Hearing his cute voice just made me smiled :)

M: How does a car sound?
A: vroom vroom vrooooom
M: How does ambulance sound?
A: Eeeeyor Eeeeyor Eeeeyor
M: How bout cats? Alyf like cats right?
A: Cat? Meowwwwww

My nephew is so smart (!!!!!!)

M: Alyf sayang auntie ok?
A: ok
M: Alyf sayang nyayi ok?
A: ok
M: Alyf good boy lah auntie pun sayang alyf!
A: auntie auntie!
M: yes alyf?
A: alyf love you

AWWWWWWWWWWW MY NEPHEW IS THE SWEETEST <3

2010-09-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

2010-09-12T17:25:00.003+08:00

Selemat Hari Raya to all muslims!

SLACK (supposed to be studying) DAY TODAY. And i'm sooooo not ready for geog test tomorrow! lol gonna fail like fuck cause i haven't finished studying grrrrrrr! The only reason to be excited for school would be I get to wear my new shoes ^^ + school starts one hour later on Mondays! (not that it makes a difference really)

I GAINED WEIGHT. Shall start the diet and exercise plans from tomorrow! lol.

2010-09-08T05:54:00.004+08:00

It's 6 in the morning and I just got home lol. Thon-ed at Serene macs with Faris to study and... it was a success! Studied geography! I FINALLY STARTED ON GEOG, I GOT A BLOODY TEST NEXT MONDAY ON CHAPTER 4 AND 5 WTF JUST KILL ME HOW TO SQUEEZE TWO BLOODY CHAPTERS OF CONTENT IN MY BRAIN SIA. Sigh

And mum's coming back from the hospital tomorrow. Which means no more going out till late at night and thonning at friend's place whenever I want. End of complete freedom. Sigh

Now it's time for my power nap and shall wake up in 2 hours time to visit my mum and then go to school for math consultation after which, I'll continue with geog before going home and cleaning up the mess at home - if mum sees the messy house I swear she's gonna nag non-stop! I hope I won't faint due to exhaustion.

2010-09-06T05:25:00.001+08:00

Begin Again - Colbie Caillat

GOOD NIGHT/MORNING! :)

2010-09-06T05:02:00.002+08:00

HI HI HI HI. Guess what I had for sahur? SAUSAGE MCMUFFIN WITH EGG FROM MACS :) Hehe. I'm so tiredzzzzz (just got home about 3 hours ago lol) but I can't sleep :( And FIW dozed off on me so there's no one to talk and entertain me right now!

OH OH AND HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SONGS ARE PLAYING ON MY ITUNES PLAYLIST ~~ Hahahaha

I'm going to start my hardcore study already. I'm going to make sure I pass my 2 h2s for promo 2 and there's nothing more important than that right now so I've gotta focus and study hard. Nothing can distract me (hopefully!!!!!!!)

Alright it's already 5.20AM - Gonna get some sleep and rest! Haven't slept since I woke up yesterday which was at 9AM hurrrrrrrrr, can you feel my tirednessss! Shall wake up at ten, do a little bit of housework, run errands for my mum, visit my mum and meet Faiz and Fat at SMU to study and maybe thon at Serene Macs to hardcore study. Hopefully things go as plan ~

4 more days!!!!

2010-09-05T10:35:00.001+08:00

We get closer and closer again
But we're falling apart
I'm losing, you're losing a friend
It's always over before we start
You're asking for love
And I wish that it could be the way that it was
But it's over
There's no one to blame
It'll never be the same
Two wrongs don't make it right
Two hearts are on the line
Maybe we could have made it
Have waited
Done this right
In the end, I'm a friend
But that's all I am to you

2010-09-02T23:52:00.005+08:00

Wah fuck sia I lost my purse!!!!! Wtf is wrong with me. First was my phone then the key then now my purse!!!! I don't care about the money inside but the purse was from my mum which she bought one month ago from carlo rino for me! >:(

"You damn careless lose all your things you might as well get lost also"

:( :( :( :(

But on the upside, met up with Nadz for buke just now!!!! Thank you for the treat! :) Haven't seen him for months! Ya lah now he busy what become a famous athlete already what! Hahaha it was nice catching up! And Amira came down for a while as well! It's really cool that we still stay in touch with each other though primary school days were long over. I MISS MY PRIMARY SCHOOL DAYS :( Hang out soon after examssssss k! (L)

I'm ready for math test tomorrow. Thank you Nadz for teaching me you were really patient haha! Come on Siti, you can't give up you've about one month to exams. YOU CAN DO THIS HAVE FAITH.

2010-09-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

2010-09-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

Too long we’ve been denying, now we’re both tired of trying. We hit a wall and we can’t get over it. Nothing to relive - it’s water under the bridge. You said it, I get it. I guess it is what it is.

2010-09-01T13:40:00.005+08:00

HI EVERYBODY :) My life have been surprisingly amazingly awesome! (YEAHHHHHH haha I'm in a totally good mood today and I refused to let anyone/anything ruin my day) I'll do a proper update soon k! Cause I've been really busy the past one/two weeks with school/homework/studying and visiting my mum everyday and catching up with friends whenever I can. Well, life can get pretty tiring at times but I know I have such awesome friends who've got my back and I can always count on them to catch me when I fall :)

"Don't get too used to the freedom you have now ah!"

One of the reasons why you're my bestfriend, you keep me grounded. FIW :)

2010-08-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

We are so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for.

But don't you just hate it sometimes? Like for all the times you pick yourself up each time you fall and when you thought that everything was going to be fine until shit happens and you just lose all the motivation to do anything all over again. The cycle just repeats itself over and over. Sigh I need to stop skipping classes and focus on studying and doing well for promo 2 get promoted to year 2. But life's been pretty tough sigh.

I WILL STAY IN MY LEARNING ZONE DURING TRAINING TOMORROW. I CAN DO IT I CAN I CAN. :(

2010-08-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who creates it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

2010-08-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

2010-08-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hi hello hey sup! I'm at Starbucks Holland with Aqi right now! I like coming here to study. Good ambience, good deliciously yummy iced mocha latte and if you're lucky enough, you'll get to see good-looking guys hehe! Anyway, Aqi's sleeping over tonight to accompny me! :)

Spent almost the whole day at the hospital today :( Mum's getting better I guess. But she lost a blood of today. I think something happened to her wound cause they had to stick a wire from her wound to this bottle where the lost blood flows to. She was in great pain too, couldn't even move her leg. When I looked at my mum earlier today, I felt really sad. I wished I had been nicer to her the past few days. But instead I went home late everyday and we barely had a proper conversation cause everytime we just ended up arguing. What happened to being a good daughter? Lol ... :(

2010-08-22T21:07:00.002+08:00

There are things that you don’t want to continue, but you are afraid to end. It’s like you don’t want to expect anything, but you’re still willing to wait.

You didn't mean it. You're not always going to be here for me. You're not here now, you're not going to be here later. So why did you tell me you would?

2010-08-15T19:58:00.003+08:00

Everything will eventually be fine. Have faith!

HELLO EVERYBODY/ANYBODY WHO STILL READS MY UBER DEAD AND BORING BLOG! :) I'm feeling damn motivated and high right now ~~ wooohooooo ~~ I did no shit today, slacked only tsk! Was supposed to study with Andrew, Jerome and Hazim at KAP Macs but had an argument with my mum this morning (OMG WHAT'S NEW) so she last minute didn't allow me to go. Got really moody afterwards so I just slept the whole day. Now I realised I fucking wasted one whole day and I need to start studying (cause hellloooo ~ exams are coming in like one month plus!) So I'm going to do accounts and math before I go to bed tonight! :) I think I should stop arguing with my mum cause shes's going operation next week and she needs me. K I'll try to be a good girl for the next 5 days k.

And I've been a bitch for the past 2 days trying to ignore you. Ugh I don't know what I'm doing also siggghhhh. It's just that I'm so tired of trying sometimes but I don't wanna let go. And I know it's quite a long time from now but I already have ideas in mind on how to celebrate your birthday ~ can't waitttttt ~ :)

I SHALL END MY POST CAUSE I'VE TO START STUDYING BEFORE MY MOTIVATION DIES. SELAMAT BERPUASA :) I need to do something about my life! I shall start by staying positive! I CAN DO THIS.

2010-08-15T18:54:00.001+08:00

2010-07-31T01:36:00.001+08:00

2010-07-27T19:50:00.003+08:00

I'm looking forward to tomorrow's training! I need to pick myself up and not let insecurities bring me down. I CAN DO IT I JUST NEED TO HAVE FAITH :)I just hope that I won't pms tomorrow during training cause I'm having period which means chances of mood swings are uber high! And I hate doing sports while having period. IT FEELS DISGUSTING. Please, don't let me get into my danger zone tomorrow.

http://countthelove.tumblr.com

I loooovvveeeee pretty pictures! :)

2010-07-07T21:52:00.002+08:00

Yozzzz!

It's been a while since I last logged in to blogger lol. A lot of things happening lately and I guess I'm just too busy/lazy to update. I won't be updating much here anyway. If you want the link to my new blog, ask me :)

i still can't let go.

2010-06-18T00:56:00.002+08:00